End of the year feels
I swiped right on a guy who looked like my ex and manifested the same person. He made me book the reservation so I booked myself as the company. When I asked him what he liked about me, he said “I’m not gonna love bomb you like the other guys” and I said “why not?” […]
A new home
August 2022 – the day I moved in, I slept on the couch. This is the biggest place I’ve lived in on my own and the walls whisper my name in them. I will miss my built in bookshelf. I’m sad I have to sell my bed but I know it’s happening for a higher […]
2022
Home. I’ve spent so long writing about it & never really finding it. I can’t sleep because I don’t feel safe here anymore, and I wonder if I ever really did. When the root chakra goes off the adrenals go on. So is home just a place we feel safe? This house is riddled with […]
Pisces Season
The woman at the car rental tries to upsell me 3 times but I’m not falling for it. “Someone hit a kangaroo last week so if you get full insurance you won’t have to worry.” I forgot that I had to worry about kangaroos being a liability in Australia. I take my chances. Before she […]
Great Keppel Island
The day of her funeral I saw a white crow and I knew she had crossed over.When I didn’t buy the radishes i knew it would happen. And in a way I wanted the suffering to end. Death is the ultimate surrender.As I crack eggs, I remember the sound and how many times I’ve heard […]
Frost on my windshield
There is frost on my windshield of our 1984 Mercedes. It was quite a popular car at the time. It’s mustard and there is a divider in between the seats my brother and I used to ride and call “horsey!” It is 1997 and I am four; adorable with bangs. My Christmas present that year […]
Drugged up and fluey
Drugged up and fluey,I’ve been wearing the sweatpants for ten days, My mind is in a haze, foggy, confusion I’ve been out of action and I feel like I’m losin’. I’m disconnected from my instrument and I’m questioning what the next thing is and how to proceed, Cause all the fire signs in me are […]